A present for someone who doesn't want me

There was a man who I once knew, for me there was no other. The closer to loving me he grew, the more he would grow further. I tried to love him as his friend, i tried to love him as a lover; but he never loved me in  the end.  I'm so done hoping him to develop affection for me.Here is a hard truth to accept: You cannot make someone love you. And the best decision that you will ever make is to stop wanting the love of someone who doesnt love you. I felt so much more than I ever showed him because he never like to talk about feelings and emotions, thats why i held back a lot back then. Even until now, I dont hate him, I did leave, but I didnt leave because i stopped loving him, I leave because the longer I stay the less I love myself and it crushing me, until the very moment I heard something whispered to me saying: "you dont need that kind of love" so this is goodbye. I think now that I start to head up, attitude up, and cheer up and I dont want to have anything to do with him anymore. I swear he wont feel sad because im just a girl he crawls back to when he's done fuckin around ahaha but Im pretty sure that I didnt met him for nothing because there is a lesson I got after his presence in my life that is I learnt to appreciate myself all thanks to him. For all of you guys who is going through the same sad love story like me, I know what you have been through all this time is not easy and good job that you made it all the way until now, but please, dont wait until your heart become numb and your heart not able to feel any emotions, never apologize for being sensitive and emotional, let it be the sign that you've got a big heart and aren't afraid to let others see it. Showing your emotions is a sign of strength. You have to let go of something that hurting you, even if it feels almost impossible. Loss is difficult to experience, and its okay to allow yourself hurt and be sad. Let yourself feel and go through the grief process so that you can move forward.
Up until now I still love people who I ever loved, this is the most sad part but no matter how much I miss them I will never look back ever again, its okay to miss them but its not okay to go after them again, let the storm pass.
I'm okay.
I'm no more in the gate of painful love, I'm on a path to being happy again. 💛

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  1. Pupuk Terong Ungu6 April 2018 pukul 20.06

    let's be happy again, both of us. it's important to move on from out sad days to happy day :)

    BalasHapus

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